Author Archives: mahani

With your little hand in mine we walk along. Your mini voice goes on and on. But I can’t focus on the words you speak. Pay attention!I’m lost in the translation of your youth. I watch the wind brush your hair against your cheek. Your eyes are wide in wonderment. You ramble on and pranceContinue reading “Pay attention”

When my children ask me how I know God exists, I say only God can do something like this.God made the stars and the moon and the sun. I know he exists ’cause he made everyone.And only God can do something like this. I know that it’s true because love exists.God made the grass andContinue reading “Rainbows”

Visions on my mind that I don’t comprehend.Changes in my life, that I don’t understand and I don’t have a plan.It’s cold outside. It feels cold inside too.And I’m missing you.Go about the day with my smile on.Bullshit conversations, just to get along.Trying to fit in, trapped inside my skin.And it’s dark outside. It’s darkContinue reading “Missing you”

Go down to the water, leave your sorrows on the shore, when the tides come rollin’ in and you can feel it wash your skin, close your eyes and know the reason you were born.In the morning when you rise, rise up with the sun, if you’re too tired and need to sleep, rest yourContinue reading “Seasons”

I don’t want to live or die without you, be the tombstone on my grave.Be the sunshine on my day.Be the map that guides my way.I love you.You, in your awkward pretty way with your crooked thinking, simple but so bravebe my reflection, be the tombstone on my grave.I love you.Your arms that wrap aroundContinue reading “Tombstone”

I remember when we were so young but I was always so much younger and looking up at you, looking up to you. You’ve always been right here, never far from me and life was always easy even when it wasn’t easy and sometimes it wasn’t easy but you helped me to get through. ItContinue reading “Sibling rivalry”

Nature is its own religion, doesn’t contemplate.People make their own decisions. Time, It doesn’t wait.Bigotry is self damnation. Prejudice is learned.Love and hate are equal measures, tables left un-turned.People create rules and laws and tell you follow me. But trees are solid til they’re cut down, then it’s not a tree.It’s carved out hollow, See?SometimesContinue reading “Natures way”

Was it enough? When I think back over the years about my kids, I wonder if what I did was enough. I’m not referring to whether I loved them enough because there’s no doubt they know they are loved beyond measure. When I think back to the very beginning, I discovered a new love forContinue reading “Warriors”

To my boys. The heart of my heart.If I built you a house, do you know what I’d do? I would build it from love. I would build it for you.In each stone that I lay, I would inscribe a prayer. I would seal it with hope and joy in every layer.I would plant youContinue reading “For You”

My mom had asked my oldest sister to have me come stay the night with her which I found interesting since I’d spent several nights with her. That’s how I knew this would be the last time. I got stuck in traffic on my way to the hospital and all I could think was, “pleaseContinue reading “habibti yuma”