Author Archives: mahani

YekiM, I don’t know how to convey you, not entirely, anyway.  There’s some sort of restriction somehow.  It’s like an obscure brilliance.  Like your light is effervescent but incommunicable.  I see you in the daffodils in spring -orange In the morning.  In the blackened sky  In the moon- so mellow.  You are the atmosphere It’sContinue reading “Daffodils”

When you’re burdened with grief your thoughts are heavy.  Your heart is heavy.  Your chest is heavy.  The weight of the sense of your loss is devastating.   The loss of a parent or a sibling or a relative that you’re very close to or a friend is devastating.  However, the loss of a childContinue reading “heavy”

-I can’t strum a guitar I don’t know the chords  but the music I hear when I write you this song comes out in these words.  -I can’t play a piano  and I can’t hold a tune  but when I sing your melody  I’m the man on the moon.  All the lyrics I’ve written can’tContinue reading “I live your name”

I will always be enormous in the presentation of my words when I am depicting how I love you.  No apologies.  Because even the word itself, love,  feels meager in comparison to the temper of my heart.  So I will tell you I love you and when I say it imagine the face of theContinue reading “Creature”

My feet never touched your ground.  My toes never thread through your soil.  I’ve never smelled your fragrance.  I have been deprived of the flavor of your earth.  The blood that runs through the veins of my existence is as green as the oil extracted from your olive trees and as red as the fireContinue reading “Falasteen”

Now I yearn for the simplicity of your life. For the regularity of the  mundane.  I crave your essence. It’s the spirit of your soul and the being of your being.  There is no safer place for me than in your presence. You are home and with you I am home. This is my God. 

Brain! Shut the fuck up!Thoughts. Thoughts. Thoughts!Coffee! Where’s my favorite cup?I wonder if we’ll get more snow.I need to fill the dogs bowl.What should I make for dinner today?I’ll figure it out after the laundry.Coffee…Brain brain brain!You’re making me crazy, got me questioning, am I sane or insane.What are the politics today? Are the boysContinue reading “Shut the F*** Up!”

I crave the pungency of the soul of everything so that I can feel the essence of its everything, so that the learning and unfolding, the peeling back the layers until it is bare, drinks me into its self. Only then can I know. Only then can I see.  -m

You are stardust and dawn. You are midnight and heavens light.You are ever and never gone.You are raindrops and morning dew. You are fragrance of changing seasons. You are full moon. You are seed of the wild flower. You are climbing trees.You are sun rays and timeless hours. You are warm breeze.You are all ofContinue reading “When the Bird Sings”

Mama, I couldn’t relate when all your breath fell into the pit of your stomach and refused to find its way back up into your lungs no matter how deep or how hard you tried to breathe it back up.  I know now even though that knowing is minuscule compared to yours. Still, now IContinue reading “Alas”